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The 2020 Pandemic Exposed My Weaknesses, Defenses, Strengths, and Potential
Not unlike most of the world, 2020 threw me into a tailspin and exposed a shadow side I was unaware of. My last post was a tribute to turning 50, where the future was my to possess. Little did I know four weeks later, everyone's world would be turned upside down. And I would see just how emotionally unhealthy I really was.
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A Letter to My 8-Year-Old Self
You'll spend a lot of your life feeling like you don't fit in. Most of the time, you'll believe it's because you're not enough, and then you'll swing to you're just too much. Somewhere along the way, you'll lose yourself, but you'll discover her again. You will actually fall in love with her, and fitting in won't seem to be that big of a deal. But it will suck that the revelation comes so much later in life.
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Love Is Patient
Love is patient (with me), love is kind (toward me) ...
I am grateful to those who read what God inspires me to write. I am grateful that God prompts me to place words to print. Often times what I write down are intimate thoughts, life experiences,…
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Please Forgive My Moment of Ranting: Don't QUIT!
But it's hard...
Agh! I think that is the weakest excuse in the book! It's also the most common excuse I hear, and the one that drives me the craziest!
Of course it's hard!
Of course living a life for God is hard. Of course trying to loose weight…
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To Hunger Only For What Is Good
I heard a testimony on the radio yesterday:
A family was at the mall when their daughter saw a homeless man scavenging food from the trash cans. The young daughter was moved by the sight, and asked her father if she could buy the man lunch.…
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Magnifying The Past
Months and months of blood work, doctor appointments, research, and waiting. Every symptom was looked at, and every new pain became a concern. Combing through online research, and multiple phone calls to specialists. Worry, fear, and uncertainty…
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Parenting: How Do You Let Go Of The Bike Seat?
They're wobbling back and forth as you're holding on to the back of the bike seat, running along side them down the middle of the road. Your firm grip on that seat won't let them fall. You yell, do I let go now... No mommy, don't let go yet,…